Lira, who I still don't know how to LJ link to, suggested going big or going home. Thus, changing that convent law that had Mary and Joseph going to register for the Census where they were from and instead over to Istanbul. Have no clue what this would do.

Lira just gave me a tea kettle that matches my orange hawian shirt. You know the one.

Thank you.

Work had coupons for free starbucks.

Not one to look a free coffee in the mouth I picked up a java chip frappaccino coupon. I like frappaccino. I like java chip. I don't like starbucks but they can't make it so sucky for free not to be worth it. RIGHT?

Stupidity your name is CCD.

First up is you're making a coffee with chunks in it, like java chips, you want the chips small enough to get through the straw. This is NOT the case.

Second of all if some one has a free coupon the purpose is to get them to come back. You shouldn't look at them and treat them like dog poop on your new shoes.

Third of are dear starbucks person. You are working in a coffee shop. Your response to "Does the Chammeal Blend really test like peppers?" should NOT be "It's coffe. It's all coffee. It's exactly the same."

mood: depressed

This is being posted to my personal journal because it names names and I don't think BRPS want to hear it. Warning rambling rant of rant and nonsense.


Break the clique up. Last Night, it took me private messaging people to point out I had used THEIR NAME to ask a direct question to be noticed. I have this issue. Some systems like L5R call is an adavantage. I fade into the background. Seg says I need to just keep posting, dear Seg I've been in a real life game with you where it took me SLAMMING MY CANE to get attention from any one but Cyn who put up with over half of an hour of me trying to get attention. 

I've tried. I've pointed out. I've asked questions. I've done what I can. I'm ignored. In Hunters I ask Ked questions, get told they aren't important, and then spend 3 hours watching him have fun with those that were in the first hunters game and it means NOTHING to me because I don't "get" it since I wasn't there.

And it doesn't matter because my complaints can be easily ignored. Since I just faaaaaaaaaaade away.

I've tried to enjoy some of these games. And I get told I just need to talk more as I said before.  I talk. I post. I get ignored. In WWBHs only Seg, Cyn, and SOMETIMES Robin interact with me. But let another character pull the same emotional strife my characater is going through and the drama train starts up and leaves me behind because I don't matter.

I post in Seg's traditional DnD game, and I get ignored and looked over. It once again takes me private messaging people, even though I've said the same point three or four times. Logs can back me up on this one.

In the Scion game, IRL, it takes me putting my hand up, then sometimes standing up to get attention. I've learned to keep my mouth shut my words carry no weight. And if that doesn't work a pleaful look at Cyn will get him to get attention for me.

I try to get involve in WWBHs and 20 minutes later Seg notices I ask a question, too late for me to jump in.

In Hunters I get told 90% of what is noticed is wrong, because I wasn't in the first game and don't know what is right and Ked wont' tell me.

In HoR unless the GM is pointing at me I need to say something shocking to get notice. This is on Kirema not my Crab.

In X-Crawl I am the bloody GM and still have to beat people up side the head to notice what I wrote.

In Canyons Robin notices me, now if only the players would.

In the D6 game, also in RL, raising my had does nothing. I've kicked the GM a few times, given up, and then started building dice towers till he notices. Two hours later he'll notice I'm still here.

I don't know how to fix this. I'm nothing. I don't get notice. My enjoyment of games is out the window. And I'm ready to just quit them all. Last night just proved to me I don't mater to WWBHs. To those of that game I'm going to talk to Seg into writing Quinton out of the story. I may or may not quit. It depends on if I get noticed.

I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to enjoy games. I need to say it twice so people see it.

No need to comment, you probably didn't see this anyways. [Yes, I'm being passive agressive.]

mood: crushed

So I built a beautiful boss encounter only to realize it would completely destroy the party.

I'm working on remaking it. I got it almost done. It's a thing of difficulty but I have faith the party CAN get through it.

So then I start looking at it closer. Here's the imaginary conversation.

<GM> Bloody Hell I don't think any one has ANY of the low level stuff to make this fight semi survivable for over half the party.
<Dei's Character Sheet> Nope nope didn't take anything like that GM.
<Gerry's character sheet> I cast spells? Really?
<Nekomancers Character Sheet> OOOH RAT! I mean..umm.. SCIENCE!
<Kaq's Character sheet> I can destroy your baddies faster then you thought but can't help with the damage.
<Jack's Character sheet> Not dealing with sword. go away or I stab you.
<Bea's character sheet> I'm self centered. Deal with it.
<GM> Bloody hell.

I need mental help.

mood: amused

Thank you professionally offended for getting upset at Bravo TV for voting the straight man off project runway. If you didn't get offended I couldn't know of the phrase "Straight Minority" and how Bravo is discriminating against them and beating them down to the slums.

I thank you for your vivid description on how a straight man can't get a job doing anything thanks to Bravo.

I love that you have offered money, lawyers, and marrage to the guy.

STRAIGHT MINORITY FOREVER!